Update! Here and There

I am doing a terrible job of exercising. Since I last said, I have not stepped on that elliptical once! I'm in real trouble here. Why on earth do I have such a hard time finding the motivation to exercise! It's terrible!

Matt continues to lose weight, I continue to lose none and actually gain a few. Although, to be completely honest, I've been cheating like crazy. A piece of chocolate here, a few cokes there, half a roll of cookie dough later and I'm completely off the wagon. I need to find a way to maintain motivation. Maybe by keeping pictures of cute babies around, it will remind me the real reason why I'm doing this. Hmm...

In other news, Matt's really starting to warm up to the idea of having a third around the house. He likes the idea of a little baby falling asleep on his chest on the couch. He likes the idea of me being pregnant. He likes the idea of taking a baby for a walk in a stroller. This is the way he adapts to the situation - by visualizing positive experiences and sights and associating them with becoming a father. I think he also likes it that I tell him all the time what a good dad he's going to make.

I've also been trying to think up creative ways that we might tell our parents once we are expecting. I've been thinking about what they might say, how my brothers might react, how Matt's siblings might as well. It's really a delightful thought, and fills me with so much excitement.

I can't understand the women who hate being pregnant. These women, on facebook, or in the grocdery store, who seem so angry to be doing something so troublesome for such an unworthy goal. Complain complain, my feet hurt, I'm nauseous, I'm so fat, I look terrible. I just can't see myself being that way! It's hard for me to say, because I've never been pregnant before, but I imagine myself being so proud to be doing something so miraculous, and able to overcome any symptom because I know that in this case, the ends definitely justify the means.

I've really enjoyed not taking birth control pills, that's a real plus here. It's sort of relieving to not have to remember all the time. And I feel a lot more balanced, I don't know if that's just my imagination or if I really am, but I like it. The only thing is, is that the alternative birth control method is a little bit more inconvenient, but we can make it work. It's working so far. I hope. Or... hope... not?

I think we might be pushing our conception date closer, also. But, that might just be wishful thinking on my part. I think I've almost got Matt thinking about June now. Next think you know I'll have him on May, and then we'll really be driving along!

It's all I think about these days! I just can't wait for the next chapter of our lives to begin!