Prenatal Appointment

Went for another weekly prenatal appointment this morning. She weighed me, and I'm still on track. My blood pressure is still excellent. And then... the internal exam.

I was not expecting that.

I mean, I was expecting the exam. I knew she needed to check the effacement of my cervix, and see where the baby's head was, etc. But I did not expect the UNBELIEVABLE pain!! WOW did that exam hurt!

And since, in Winnipeg, the doctor-patient experience isn't quite as personal, and a little rushed, she was basically in and out and on her way, without much sensitivity to the fact that I was being recklessly invaded and, felt like, being torn apart from the inside out! It was a very cold and quick exam, the doctor basically looked at me like "Sorry, this is necessary. You'll be fine." and that was the gist of the empathy I received. Sigh. Why can't it be like the movies? After the appointment was over, and I was left in the room with Matt to get my clothes back on, I just wanted to cry! I felt so shaken up by the experience!

I understand why it was so intense, though. It really wasn't the doctor's fault. The baby is just SO high up, she had to do a lot of reaching and digging in order to find something. My due date is in only 5 days, and the baby still hasn't "dropped" officially. I'm only at 1 cm currently, which is not as far along as the doctor was expecting. She also had to rough-me-up a little bit, in order to kick start my body for what's coming. Apparently a little bit of cervix-scraping is a good thing, she was telling us. It sometimes tricks it into thinning out sooner. Or something.

Ack. Anyway. It was definitely an extremely unpleasant experience. But at least I've got 1 cm, right? And baby's head is still very down! So that's good.

I've got another appointment scheduled for next Wednesday, two days after my due date. I'm so torn, because I want this baby out SO badly (I am SO ready to not be pregnant anymore!) but then, our photographer that we've booked for the birth-story is going to be away from the 15th to the 22nd! So, a part of me wants baby to wait until after the 22nd, but a part of me wants baby out NOW! We do have a backup photographer should baby decide to come within that 15th-22nd window, but the original photographer we chose is really our dream guy. His name's Curtis Moore, and you can find him at www.moorephotography.ca, or www.mooreblog.ca.

So, baby, you can come now, or later, whatever you decide. But please be further down by next week's appointment! For all our sakes! :P