Thoughts from Dad

You've heard of baby's first words, well here are dad's first words and let me tell you, they are almost as important.

Holly spent most of the afternoon catching up with this blog. She's so creative and sweet. I'm glad that other people will be able to be in on the story that is taking place right before our eyes.

It's been quite a ride so far with all the checkups and progress but all the technical stuff aside...Holly must be dedicated to making this experience "unforgettable" for myself. I never knew how off the wall a pregnant woman can be and Holly had an exuberant personality to begin with. I've had to do so much convincing in the past months. "What if I absorbed it?" was the most common phrase uttered in our household. Also "There's nothing for breakfast!" and "There's nothing for lunch!" were phrases spoken everyday like clockwork, even after I stocked up on fruits and pop tarts and activia and toaster strudels. What once was, was no more, but I guess she's pretty much the same only crazier. :S

The baby has been growing constantly, with a strong heartbeat I might add. how hoo how hoo how hoo how hoo. It's such an interesting sound. It's also the only thing convincing Holly that there is actually a baby in there. It's a little tough for me at times though. Not the thought of a baby of course but the fact that it's like getting a gift on no particular occasion and being told that in nine months you can open it. You go through all manner of emotion. Excitement, Panic, Joy, Curiosity, and a little Fear. Not fear because it's something to be afraid of but a fear of the unknown. It's a leap of faith that can never be anything but.

The emotion I have most though is Love. At the moment I don't particularly feel like a dad yet but I'm totally in love with the mom Holly is. Seeing her with her dreams on the horizon has given her a glow in her eyes that's making me fall ever deeper in love with her. I love this child already because it's a part of my wife and any gift she gives me I will surely cherish forever.

I can't wait to be a dad.